This is a big year. My oldest daughter, Lil, will graduate from high school.
When I graduated it never occurred to me that my mother was feeling the pains of her youngest moving on. I am sorry for it because maybe I would have included her in what I was doing.
This week I went to Lil's last field hockey game. Forever. I don't know how many games I have attended over the years, 40 or 50? I took it for granted that I would always be watching her, hoping and praying for her to block each goal because I didn't want her to be disappointed.
I have watched her academic success her whole life. She loves to learn. She is nearly over-motivated to perfection in school work. Never an athlete before high school she surprised us all with her love of sports. She has won academic honors every year and more recently added athletic awards to her list.
She doesn't socialize much. Enjoying the comraderie of her team or a class is enough. She never feels the need to hang out with people other than her family outside of these times. I have never understood it, but that is her. She is in some ways an odd duck.
I have learned some very important things from Lil. She doesn't worry about others opinions of her. She feels no need to brag or show off to others about her awards. In fact, she will diminish them if she can. She wont' share a thing that she has accomplished with her unless you drag it out of her. There is no need because she is happy with who she is. She admonishes me for my insecurities and loves me in spite of them.
Tonight I was reading from proverbs 27:2 Let another praise you, and not your own mouth; someone else, and not your own lips.
It has been a pleasure to watch her grow and follow in this way. I hope to be more like her.